Finally ate today !

It getting a bit easier & alot of people around are adapting rather than treading on egg shells!

Starting to feel really bad for snapping at my brother for jokingly pointing out a sailor on the North East news as my boy, just after he anounced he was engaged, but really how inconsiderate? BAD SISTER

Was late for work this morning, slept in, ooops. Oh well work goes on when I'm not there so why worry!? I'm sure old men can wait for their john smiths at 9am on a morning the bloody alchys! I say that, but they are lovley and keep me smiling and my chin up at work, regardless whether they are old enough to be my Grandad and call me gorgeous!

So finished work tonight, was lashing down with rain, but I love being in the rain It reminds me of going for drives with the boy and him splashing big puddles everywhere; obviously not people, he does have some feelings! But it made me smile so much and was waiting for a friend to pick me up and my phone rings, I'm like "Hello, I'm just out side, where are you?" Turns out it wasn't my friend (who for the record decided to stand me up the bitch, not the first time, but definatly the last ) It was him and so there I am in the door way at work like, OMG OMG It's you Isn't It! & just burst into bloody tears!!

Got to be said it has definatly boosted me a bit from being a sad, I was just so shocked! Although I cried the whole phone conversation, It wasn't sad tears It was more overwhelmed with emotion tears! I was just so happy & there was me thinking he'd forgotten me!

Given It was only a 20 min phone call but I was gutted on my break he'd text me just before I put my phone In my locker.

Got to be said, I really do love him, & even said, In a nice way, I didn't think I actually loved you as much as I did till you weren't here.

Bit of "Don't know what you'v got til it's gone" syndrome going on there!

So definatly a better day today, without a doubt! & with a rough idea of when I will next speak to him, I think thats half the bad thing, Is not actually knowing when you will actually hear from them again, like the suspence sort of thing?

Glad he's safe and working hard and having fun to, nice to know I'm still on his mind all the time! Glad he thinks of me just as much as I think of him.

And says he should be definatly home for Christmas! Misses my birthday but I'm sure we'l have a little bash when he gets back

Just wanted to write, should really get a diary and not bore you guys!

Over & out.

Blondiie